I Hate My Body. I Hate Myself.
My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.
And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH!
The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore.
But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single fucked up word it has ever spoken to me.
This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over the last few years.
So, enjoy my fucked up thoughts every fortnight.
With work, home life, family and all of that stuff, fortnightly is all I can achieve right now. And, that’s ok! I’m here. I’m doing it. I’m loving it.
So, keep on shouting “SHUT THE FUCK UP!”.
In this episode, I talk about my hatred for my body and myself for the last thirty-plus years.
It consumed me.
"Down in the depths of my depression, hate plunged itself into the murkiness and enjoyed wallowing around in every single feeling of hurt and every single thought of contempt I had about myself each day of my miserable life."
My whole life revolved around this intense feeling of hatred, controlling what I did, what I said and how I behaved.
I was nastiest to the woman in the mirror and once I found out I didn't have to believe in those nasty lies anymore, my whole world changed.
I now had to find my way back to a better-feeling place. A place where I could actually love who I am.
Thank you for listening.
There is no love outside of you greater than the love inside of you.
Listen. Learn. Love.
For more ways to raise love 💖 :
For the Love of Me. A Collection of Poems and Short Stories. Find it here on Amazon https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/B0BSBTX3K3
Stories of She: https://lovebodywoman.com/stories-of-she/
Shut the F**k Up column: https://lovebodywoman.com/shut-the-fuck-up-column/