The story of the title of my podcast kind of explains me better than I can.
Reference:
The Office: Season 5, Episode 16 08:26
https://youtube.com/clip/Ugkx_80ZgXToryR6BS4aHCZkFs7HFRgy6O9N
As I was preparing to launch the first episode of this podcast, I was horrified at the empty name box. Then I had the best idea, as my episode one is now named “It is my podcast.” The inspiration from my favorite show of all time at the timestamp above. Once I got the idea, I thought about the show and laughed out loud to myself at the idea of it. At that point I decided I needed to provide the above timestamp so people that regrettably don’t watch the office would understand how hilarious it is. Now, I am in Bali, and because of that Peacock (the streaming platform I downloaded simply to watch The Office) doesn’t work. So now I can’t find the exact point. Mind you, I did find one like within 5 seconds of the point I would have wanted, but then I didn’t want to go back to far if I guessed. Then I decide to check Apple TV and they have the episode, but for $5.99. It would be ridiculous to buy it just to get the timestamp, yet here we are. Now I am trying to speed scroll back and forth trying to find the part I am looking for. I can’t find it. Finally, after awhile I do a dreaded google search, to make sure it was the right episode. It was not. At this point, I am in too deep. I have to get the other one now. Luckily that one, $2.99. Voila. Therefore, if you don’t watch the office I beg you to please watch this clip. It cost me $11 to find it. The best part? I then realized you can’t watch it so I posted a link to the clip on YouTube.
The point? I’m sure you ask. Well, this is me in a nutshell. I am spontaneous hence, Bali, and many other things I will dive into. I am driven and have a need to figure things out, at times to a fault. I am stubborn, a perfectionist, and ridiculous. I love to laugh. Also it shows insight into the effects of breast cancer spreading to my brain. I do more dumb shit, simply put. I make a lot of mistakes, but I try my very best to fix them. I learn from them. It also tells a story of one of the core things I like to talk about. How life happens. The people that come, that go. Almost every human you interact with has a lasting effect on you in some way or another. In this case, one of my favorite birthday moments took place with people no longer in my life, but the memory remains and the lessons I took from that point in my life. I am grateful for the memory no matter the end result of those it was shared with. My favorite song in the world was from a friend in high school who at the time was one the most relevant in my life. He introduced me to Drake, who was the first artist ever I knew & loved before most others. That guy moved away I haven’t thought of him in years, but I listen to the song by Drake weekly @ minimum. Life is like that. The string of events that led me to Bali are unexplainable in their perfect alignment other than this is where I was supposed to be, and thank God I am.
To be completely honest, I don’t know exactly what I talk about in this episode. I don’t want to listen or I might not release it, but I do know that it is just me doing my best to record a podcast battling aggressive ADHD, imposter syndrome, and an overwhelming anxiety, that no one is going to care or enjoy any part of it.
If you smile, laugh, learn, something, ore experience any positive emotion in the 40ish minutes you are listening — I accomplished my goal.
Edit to add: I actually already named it when I recorded it.
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