Mekhaela

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Hi, my name is MEKHAELA, and this is my diary. I’m here to tell you about my life, my depression, and all the love that I’ve lost from 2006 to the present. Who am I? I’m an ordinary Jane who’s trying to get by with my day-to-day life. I have fallen several times in the past but I am trying to bring myself up. In this podcast, you will hear and understand that an ordinary person who you may have walked right past, or had a coffee at some point may have single-handedly fought her own battles but still tried to keep her balance. Creator/Host: Mekhaela read less

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COMING SOON... SEASON TWO

COMING SOON... SEASON TWO

A year after her marriage ended, Mekhaela had once again, exposed herself in a very vulnerable situation and began opening herself to the dating scene...and then, she met him. Mark all your calendars on November 2nd. Mekhaela will be back.

Episodes

EP1. The Gemini Effect - Pilot Episode

EP1. The Gemini Effect - Pilot Episode

This pilot episode talks about their lives, introducing themselves to the world, and the reason why they've come up with the podcast. Started out as colleagues, Mia and Erick share almost the same likes, dislikes, opinions, music, whatever. They share the same birth month and even graduated from the same course in college though they studied in different schools. Hence, they call themselves "Kambal" (Twins).

EPISODE 40, The Finale : December 18, 2009 - Farewell, Mahal!

EPISODE 40, The Finale : December 18, 2009 - Farewell, Mahal!

MEKHAELA wrote a letter a day before MILES' birthday. Maybe it was HER way to finally close HER doors and bid farewell to HIM, and also to reconcile the whole “hoping for him to come back to me”. "...I have loved you. That’s all that matters." Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 39: December 16, 2009 - Miles Is Over Me

EPISODE 39: December 16, 2009 - Miles Is Over Me

A common friend had told MEKHAELA that Miles had dropped the towel and moved on. It was painful news to bear… how did SHE cope with it? "...I remembered he said to me (and I still keep that SMS he sent) that he was being honest and all. So, was all of that a lie? Was it just a joke all along? " Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 38: December 7, 2009 - The Final Letter Drafted Under the Sorrows

EPISODE 38: December 7, 2009 - The Final Letter Drafted Under the Sorrows

MEKHAELA has been so clueless on what’s the true purpose of HER existence. Is SHE just here to pay the bills? To be happy? To suffer? "For years I have been wondering what’s the purpose of my being here. I had no clue before. All I know is that I need to live and die like the rest of the lot." Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 37: November 29, 2009 - “Who’s That Lost Soul?”

EPISODE 37: November 29, 2009 - “Who’s That Lost Soul?”

MEKHAELA wrote yet another entry referring to HERSELF as a third person. Under a microscope, what does SHE mean by that? Whois SHE? What has become of HER? Let’s find out in this entry from 12 years ago. “…and so another round of hangover begins!”, exclaimed Mekhaela as she continues to sip her Russian Vodka with a lemon twist. Cover art by MONIQUE Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 36: November 28, 2009 - The Struggles

EPISODE 36: November 28, 2009 - The Struggles

Dreams, do they make everything so real or do they make you confused the very next day? This entry speaks about how MILES had been in MEKHAELA'S dreams repeatedly and that’s quite concerning because let’s face it, SHE was in the middle of moving on. "Recurring nightmares of him? How the hell? What the hell? Why the hell?" Cover art by MONIQUE Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 35: November 25, 2009 - Mekhaela Declares: We Can Never Be Friends Again

EPISODE 35: November 25, 2009 - Mekhaela Declares: We Can Never Be Friends Again

What’s the use of becoming friends with an ex who has hurt you a lot? Was MEKHAELA bitter? Was SHE still hurting? Was it still a good idea to open HER doors if he would like to extend a hand for friendship? "He’s dead. He made me think he’s dead. " Cover art by: MONIQUE Voiced by: MIA

EPISODE 34: November 18, 2009 - On Public Eye

EPISODE 34: November 18, 2009 - On Public Eye

Dreaming about someone that hurt you makes it a lot harder to just shrug the feelings off. But what had MEKHAELA done to move past it? "After all the crap he’s been saying to me, I finally see what others have tried to warn me about. " Cover art by: MONIQUE Voiced by: MIA

EPISODE 33: November 16, 2009 - Little Miss Houdini

EPISODE 33: November 16, 2009 - Little Miss Houdini

An ex from college had suddenly reached out through social media asking why MEKHAELA disappeared and what could have gone wrong? Did he scare HER of his proposal? Let’s find out! "Let's call him CARLISLE." Cover Art by: MONIQUE Voiced by: MIA

EPISODE 32: November 15, 2009 - On Drinking Binge

EPISODE 32: November 15, 2009 - On Drinking Binge

The date? November 15th of 2009. MEKHAELA couldn’t remember the time. But SHE just realized SHE spiraled back to HER weakness. How did it happen? This entry would surely explain, or probably not. It’s up to you to decide. "The only good thing about me getting drunk is I stop talking the minute alcohol reaches to my brain. I don’t flirt, I don’t talk, I just sit there and stare at the people around me as if I’m plotting a massacre in two hours." Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 31: November 10, 2009 - My Sancta Terra

EPISODE 31: November 10, 2009 - My Sancta Terra

Why did she call it Sancta Terra? A sweet escape? Or a better one? Did MEKHELA create an invisible separator glass from the judging eyes of others? Let’s find out in this entry on Monday. “Take me to a place where no one can follow” Cover Art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 30: November 9, 2009 - Saved Messages: Bitten By The Ugly Truth

EPISODE 30: November 9, 2009 - Saved Messages: Bitten By The Ugly Truth

MEKHAELA kept Miles’ messages maybe because SHE wanted to prove to HERSELF that SHE wasn’t crazy and he really existed, or probably SHE was just being creepy. Yeah, it was funny though. Or Maybe because those messages were the only thing that’s left of him. "I used to think of him as someone who would never hurt me. But he just did, and it scared the crap out of me." Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

Episode 29: November 8, 2009 - On Fighting Temptation

Episode 29: November 8, 2009 - On Fighting Temptation

MEKHAELA wasn’t good at dealing with HER emotions and SHE tends to hurt HERSELF. Maybe because when SHE gets herself wounded up, hurting HERSELF conceals the emotional pain SHE'S going through. Little did SHE know that this isn’t healthy. "Why do I have the urge to hurt myself yet again?" Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 28: November 7, 2009 - Alarmed: On Changing Routes

EPISODE 28: November 7, 2009 - Alarmed: On Changing Routes

When the universe conspires, it does and MEKHAELA thought it was one of those instances that SHE felt the universe hated HER. SHE had to change everything. What happened to HER with Miles had affected everything. But how did it distress MEKHAELA as a whole? "Do I need to change my route as well? " Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 27: November 4, 2009 - Confession Blues: Lesson Learned

EPISODE 27: November 4, 2009 - Confession Blues: Lesson Learned

The next entry speaks about the last two entries ago about MEKHAELA meeting this guy named ZIGGY. She's being asked what’s her ideal guy? A question that was asked more often every SINGLE time. Did MEKHAELA had one back then, or not? This guy's question that got MEKHAELA frozen for a bit. "Why can’t just a guy be man enough to say to a woman’s face that it’s really over?" Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 26: October 24, 2009 – IN TROUBLE: The Suicide Attempt

EPISODE 26: October 24, 2009 – IN TROUBLE: The Suicide Attempt

What the hell was MEKHAELA thinking? Was suicide the only solution to everything? Or was SHE being slapped by the reality and pulled HERSELF together? "It was a very stupid idea, I know. But have you ever gotten the feeling that problems have become so overwhelming and yet there’s no one to hear you out but yourself..." Sound by JABS Cover art by MONIQUE Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 25: October 21, 2009 - The Element of Moving On

EPISODE 25: October 21, 2009 - The Element of Moving On

Up to what extent did MEKHAELA go through just to heal? "Guys leave you just like that without any word and that hurts especially if you’ve given your 101%." Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 24: October 7, 2009 - ON LAYING LOW

EPISODE 24: October 7, 2009 - ON LAYING LOW

Laying low after all of those things that happened to MEKHAELA was a good decision, or so SHE thought. Maybe it gave HER time to think and to pull HERSELF together. "Some will be retained but there are some that are going to be forgotten forever. .But have they sympathized with me at the lowest point of my life?" Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 23: October 6, 2009 - On the “Loser’s Routine” and “Lip Service”

EPISODE 23: October 6, 2009 - On the “Loser’s Routine” and “Lip Service”

MEKHAELA decided to simply withdraw from the people who wouldn’t understand HER. SHE thought it was all for the best. The less SHE sees them, the little they will see HER vulnerability. Was it a good decision or did it take turn for the worse? "I’m the type who clings to every word a person says." Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA

EPISODE 22: September 2, 2009 - PICKING UP THE SHATTERED PIECES

EPISODE 22: September 2, 2009 - PICKING UP THE SHATTERED PIECES

September 2009 came and MEKHAELA decided to set HER sorrows aside and start regaining HER old self. SHE knew it was a difficult process to take but SHE has to start somewhere. Did it do HER any good? "I’m alone in my battle now and the least I can do is to protect myself against those people who take advantage of my being emotionally frail." Cover art by MONIQUE Sound by JABS Voiced by MIA